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ironically) wrote2011-10-06 01:03 pm
ironically) wrote2011-10-06 01:03 pm
Memory Ten - Triv Neu
Nanatsusaya/Kira Memory: Arachne visiting him in jail
Taken: Day 88
Not sharable
Here to page 26!
So this basically an info dump that ONCE AGAIN amounts to 'I GUESS I LOVED SETSUNA AND ALEXIEL AND WOULD DO EVERYTHING FOR THEM'.
Kira went to jail for a crime he didn't (technically) commit to protect Setsuna, who he suspects would probably be beaten to death if the cops got a hold of him, or maybe raped and murdered in prison! Who knows. What he does know is ALEXIEL ALWAYS DIES TERRIBLY and she never lives much longer than this, so it is crunch time to save Setsuna from God's bullshit.
He tells all of this to Arachne pretty openly, I actually forgot about this but I'm glad it backs up my tendency for Lucifer to be pretty open when dealing with direct, non-judgmental people.
Anyway, he doesn't get the full flashback! He just gets the narrative portion. The feelings are more a mild, thoughtful confusion. In a previous life, Alexiel was a young prostitute who tried to run away with her love, but he was killed and she was injured. He took the body of that man, who asked Nanatsusaya to love her, and kill her. Nanatsusaya DIDN'T GET IT, for probably a lot of reasons! One, the basic 'killing something you want to save is kind of the opposite of helping, isn't it?' and two, 'what is love? how does I love?', three, 'this wish clearly fills you with anguish so why do you wish it? why not wish for me to save her and protect her forever?' and four, 'HOW DO YOU CARE SO MUCH ABOUT SOMEONE ELSE IDGI'.
SO BASICALLY CONFUSING HUMAN FEELINGS that I think Kira really DOES understand, but tells himself he doesn't because, in part it is just incomprehensible, and in part he is only beginning to accept his own humanity.
This is no longer a thing Kira is really upset about at this point, so Lucifer doesn't get the one-two emotional face punch of Alexiel's gratitude and then her death. However, he does know that he cared about it then. But this is once again a Lucifer distancing issue of 'Well I can see I cared then, but that doens't mean I care now'.
Still, emotionally this memory has a lof of fondness, because Kira is pleased he did something to protect Setsuna. He does not give the slightest fuck that he is in jail, and he has no idea whose murder he is in jail for (Katou's).
Changes will just be another gradual step upward in how to people better, how to show/feel more emotion, etc.
Learned/Effects:
Taken: Day 88
Not sharable
Here to page 26!
So this basically an info dump that ONCE AGAIN amounts to 'I GUESS I LOVED SETSUNA AND ALEXIEL AND WOULD DO EVERYTHING FOR THEM'.
Kira went to jail for a crime he didn't (technically) commit to protect Setsuna, who he suspects would probably be beaten to death if the cops got a hold of him, or maybe raped and murdered in prison! Who knows. What he does know is ALEXIEL ALWAYS DIES TERRIBLY and she never lives much longer than this, so it is crunch time to save Setsuna from God's bullshit.
He tells all of this to Arachne pretty openly, I actually forgot about this but I'm glad it backs up my tendency for Lucifer to be pretty open when dealing with direct, non-judgmental people.
Anyway, he doesn't get the full flashback! He just gets the narrative portion. The feelings are more a mild, thoughtful confusion. In a previous life, Alexiel was a young prostitute who tried to run away with her love, but he was killed and she was injured. He took the body of that man, who asked Nanatsusaya to love her, and kill her. Nanatsusaya DIDN'T GET IT, for probably a lot of reasons! One, the basic 'killing something you want to save is kind of the opposite of helping, isn't it?' and two, 'what is love? how does I love?', three, 'this wish clearly fills you with anguish so why do you wish it? why not wish for me to save her and protect her forever?' and four, 'HOW DO YOU CARE SO MUCH ABOUT SOMEONE ELSE IDGI'.
SO BASICALLY CONFUSING HUMAN FEELINGS that I think Kira really DOES understand, but tells himself he doesn't because, in part it is just incomprehensible, and in part he is only beginning to accept his own humanity.
This is no longer a thing Kira is really upset about at this point, so Lucifer doesn't get the one-two emotional face punch of Alexiel's gratitude and then her death. However, he does know that he cared about it then. But this is once again a Lucifer distancing issue of 'Well I can see I cared then, but that doens't mean I care now'.
Still, emotionally this memory has a lof of fondness, because Kira is pleased he did something to protect Setsuna. He does not give the slightest fuck that he is in jail, and he has no idea whose murder he is in jail for (Katou's).
Changes will just be another gradual step upward in how to people better, how to show/feel more emotion, etc.
Learned/Effects:
-My sword was named Shiranui and I liked it =|a (YURI HE IS GOING TO MAKE YOU GIVE HIM A QUEST FOR SHIRANUI)
-Assiah = Earth
-God's punishment to Alexiel was to lock her into an endless cycle of suffering
-Had not actively been trying to break the cycle until recently, was merely watching over her through many lives
+General oh so that's what trannies/hookers/brothels/cops/samurai/jail are
+25 swordere
+30 platonic honest conversation
+15 how to hit on people
+10 accepting own humanity
+40 what the balls is up with humans
+95 fuck god (=